/dr/ - Dreams

Sorry for the long reply.

When I was a child I thought I was too ugly and weird for a girl to like me, so I decided when I got older I'd be bigfoot (or a slouching hermit living in a mossy wooden shack).
So I decided to start small, I'd walk on ground barefoot so it wouldn't hurt anymore.

I'm 20 now and hopeless in more areas than just my love life.
At least I can walk in the forest barefoot without worrying too much, so dream achieved?

Growing up, I wanted to be living by myself in some condo in a big city. Holding down a very important job that no one else could do. I would travel around the city and have adventures like I would in a video game. I would have a fast car and a beatiful, loving girlfriend whom I would spat with every now and then. I wanted that.

I'm almost 30 now, my job as a food service worker is being cut short no thanks to the lockdowns. I've never been in a relationship with a girl at all and spent most of my leisure time on the internet or working part-time. I still live with my mother and I drive a beat-up minivan for work and groceries. Making me think about it. I get sad that I could've done more with my life.