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I'll start with my mid-term dream:
I live in a third world country, and in a couple of weeks I'll finish my career studies. I already landed a decent job, but what I really want to do is study a masters abroad. My job looks fun, but ultimately it's not what I want to dedicate my life to. I want to be a researcher, work on discovering stuff that will improve the lives of people, or help us be more sustainable as a species. It's been a life long dream of mine, and I want to reach it.
I still need to work a year or two because I had to ask for loans in order to pay for my studies. After that, I'll aim for a scholarship that allows me to study a Masters in a good university, one that allows me to assist in research. I just hope I manage to actually reach that point one day.
I know it's not a grandiose dream and that it's probably a bit selfish, but it's something I really want.
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>What do you wish to achieve?
In a word: Happiness.
In two words: Inner happiness.
In THREE words: SUSTAINABLE inner happiness
>How do you plan to reach your goals?
I'm going to start attending focused buddhist meditation sessions a couple times a month - I have been abusing myself for the past several years in various ways, and now I am young, but have extremely high blood pressure because I am so neurotic as a result of the constant stress I've been under.
>What have you done so far to succeed?
Made a commitment to myself to not work more than two weeks straight at a time.
>What's keeping you down or what obstacles do you see in your path?
Myself. I could type out any string of excuses I want. I could blame this that or the other thing ad infinitum - convince everyone around me that it's a legitimate reason, but I can't lie to myself anymore. I physically cannot. My physical heart is saying it's going to explode if I stress more than I am.
My sister died of heart complications when she was 8. I am not in the right family to be pulling this kind of shit.
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The greatest of things: I want to go to college, which I can't afford. I want a PhD in linguistics or computer science. I want to do science and research. I want to live in a small house, or even an apartment, as long as I can take care of a dog and a cat. Perhaps have a group relationship with some men, women, and the dog.
I don't want any money, assets, or anything: I just want to do fun, interesting things, and to explore the world, help people live better lives, learn new knowledge, and invent new ideas and theories.>How do you plan to reach your goals?
The only way is to move to a country where universities are free.>What have you done so far to succeed?
Bought a Czech textbook. Haven't been reading it yet since I'm unfortunately not free despite being NEET.>What's keeping you down or what obstacles do you see in your path?
Capitalism, statism, religion, and family.>>547
Those are some nice goals. I hope things go well for you. Why stop at a masters when a doctorate can help you be a researcher?>>553>happiness
Those are both things designed to lower your standards and expectations. If you want happiness in the sense that ignorance is bliss, you can get it that way. When your standards are as low as those of a buddhist, anything can be pleasant. Giving up desire for goodness is a sad thing. Many religions are about this, anyway: religions are often designed to make lower classes not desire good lives.>heart complications
Some nights my chest feels interesting in ways that make me feel incredibly scared and anxious, but at the same time I always hope that it's finally the night I die.>>575
Think about what you like doing. Make your dream to be in a situation where you can do it as much as you want, and be happiest.
I hope you use your good standing to try and help your nation. Brain-drain is why it takes so long for third-world countries to improve. >>646>Capitalism, statism, religion, and family.
Sounds like you're just blaming other things instead of the real problem: yourself. You can only improve yourself when you recognize what is wrong. >>546
Well, I'd really like to be the king of my own nation, or a great adventurer, or a genius scientist, you know, all the things I'd daydream about when I was a kid. But they're unrealistic. And, since I started growing up, the fantastic in my dreams has declined. Now, I only daydream about a few things.
1: Systems. Systems of many different things. Like, I make up my own government for a fictional nation, or a own language. Usually without a ton of actual story. Just world-building.
2: Stories. Now, while the grandiosity in my dreams has dwindled, a bit is still there. And some of these stories aren't even that grandiose. But the difference between these stories and the ones of my youth is that these never involve me. Always a character who's separate from myself.
3: A mundane life. These are the only dreams I can really have with myself as the main character, anymore. And they go pretty much the same. Get out of NEETdom, get a job, an apartment, I spend some time imagining what the apartment would look like, Etc., then they diverge, a bit. Most, here, just end in me wallowing in alcohol and killing myself. But why is that? These are my dreams. They're supposed to make me happy. Why do I kill myself, even in them? I don't know. Now, some end in me becoming a hermit, building a cabin out in the woods of Maine, or somewhere, near a great forest, and a beautiful cliff by the sea, with a cold sand beach down at the bottom. Basically, I imagine myself living in my dream area. Then, in some of them, when I'm feeling really good, I imagine a woman coming into my life. I'm not often able to dream of women, because my self-inserting dreams tend to be more realistic, and I can't imagine a woman ever caring about me, but sometimes, I'm just feeling good. I marry her, raise a family, we move to Maine.
And that's my true dream, my end goal. But it'll never happen. I'm just gonna kill myself, when it becomes completely unbearable to live.
>>647>Sounds like you're just blaming other things instead of the real problem: yourself.
No, I'm a motivated and intelligent person, and I'd do many good things in life if I wasn't prohibited from doing so.>You can only improve yourself when you recognize what is wrong.
Correct. I believe in the power of the individual, and see that many groups work together to make individuals suffer rather than thrive.
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I wish to visit a tundral, mountainous place like in this picture, but there's no way to do it because of my declining condition, so I will read and fantasize about it instead.
>>546>What do you wish to achieve?
I'd like to have some stability in my life, become self-independent, and live somewhere where I can really enjoy life.
>How do you plan to reach your goals?>What have you done so far to succeed?>What's keeping you down or what obstacles do you see in your path?
This is a step that really needs to be figured out, but I've made a couple of first moves such as making an appointment to see a psychologist to deal with a lot of mental health problems and coping mechanisms to get me through this. Also I plan on starting to put more effort into myself and those around me. My girlfriend has been there for me for so long now and I need to in return be there for her. I have to stop worrying so much about other people in the community that doesn't like me and truly let go of my past. It's not going to be an easy road but it's one that I must take. Even if I have to take "baby steps" along the way in order to better myself just a little bit each and every day.
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I want to make an adventure/puzzle game in RPG Maker, but I'm also kind of ashamed of this goal since this is a bit of a childish thing to spend my time on, as opposed to an important IRL career or something….
RPGMaker gets undeserved hate too often.
It has a charm unlike any other engine. I wish you good luck and determination.
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It's been a few months so I thought I'd give an update. I've been working an unpaid job to get experience and I really enjoy it. Being unpaid, I had to put moving out on hold. I feel a lot more confident now thanks to the experience. I haven't really made any steps towards eating healthier but my skin has cleared up so, so much and I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing. I also haven't made much of an effort to pick up any hobbies or de-stressing techniques but re-reading this post has reminded me to try again this evening after work. I'm going to also apply for lots of paid jobs over the next few weeks so wish me luck anons :)
If you do already know of him, you might be interested in his biblical series of lectures. I have been an avowed agnostic for 15 years, and saw very little value in the bible except as a collection of fairy tales that were just favorites told over time by people too illiterate and uncreative to write new ones.
Holy shit, was I ever wrong. He seriously is helping unlock ancient wisdom millenia in the making for the masses in that series. I will never EVER look at life, or especially that book, in the same way ever again after watching just the first few.
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I used to play Minecraft and listen to his biblical lectures. I find I process fluid information better when I'm doing something else in the background.
I especially liked Biblical Series X - Abraham, Father of Nations mostly because of the way it's titled. A comment on the video said it sounded like an anime title and that's become an in-joke between my school friends.
I made this vector art for class. It took two weeks of tracing lol
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I want to draw my art faster but I can't. At this rate I will not be able to pay my rent with just commissions alone, but I really want to continue drawing instead of getting a "real job" which won't really pay me a lot better anyway in my country. Art is something I love making and I really think I could get popular since some of my art used to get reposted a lot. I'm good enough that people pay me for it, but I'm not good enough to draw fast and consistently and this is only thing holding me back.
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lmao good catch about the xXBiblicalxSeriesXx - Father of Nations title. Very cool to meet another fan of his though - I'm on lecture IX, so almost there!
I've thought about that too. Currently I am probably going to study business/something in stem. I've got good scores in my standardized exams so I should be able to get in with just those. (I might retake some if I don't get in, and even take a completely new one in another language.)
The stem fields are a bit of a new annexation for me. When I went through my countries version of high school, I was mainly a humanist. Since then I've discovered that I actually really like math. I'm currently teaching myself basic physics.
Stable career is a bit of a mystery for me as of now because I don't have a degree yet, but I trust my ability to get that in order as well.
I want to have my family as a cornerstone in my life, which is why I mention it as a primary dream. Work is more secondary for me, though I don't mean to belittle its importance in living a full life.
and I just wanted to say that >>798
is not me, I cannot stand Jordan Peterson.