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My goals are to start taking better care of myself. I eat too much junk food, I'm not very hygienic, and I put other people first on an almost daily basis with small choices and sacrifices. Even thinking about it for years, I can pretty objectively say that very few, maybe only one person, ever reciprocate in any way, but even then, it's such a small reciprocation that it's disrespectful to myself to continue.
I'm not sure if I should try making a list of rigid rules and saying "I'm going to stick to this 100%!" or leave it sort of ambiguous in my mind. This is the sort of conundrum I've had where if I had a gf I think I would have a reason to do things for myself, but because I don't, haven't in a long time, and I probably won't have one for another long time, makes it sort of hard to be convinced to try.
Yuno is so pure.
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I scrambled all of my steam account passwords so that I could finally get myself to quit playing video games. Maybe my resolution will work this year
"From this instant on, vow to stop disappointing yourself. Seperate yourself from the mob. Decide to be extraordinary and do what you need to do - now."
- Epictetus, Stoic Philosopher of Greece
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Go for it anon. Principles are what set you apart from the weak.
Remember that failure is not falling but staying on the ground. Strength is picking yourself up!
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Thank you anons! I will do my best for not just myself but you guys too :)
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I've been trying to change my internet behavior for a while now, but I can't seem to do it.
I want to stop reading news and magazines, because they all just make me angry and sad. I want to stop going on social media (yes chans included) because it makes me feel bad about myself and other people. I want to stop wasting my time in ways I don't even like. I want to stop using the internet to do anything that isn't productive or actually fun. So I want to start looking at more art, I want to read more books & comics, watch more movies, listen to more music, play more games, find new hobbies, and do other things I actually enjoy.
But I can't seem to do it. It's not just that I can't change my behavior, there's obstacles in the way. Everything offline costs money I don't have. I can't even play most games since my good computer broke. Even using the internet productively is hard. For finding art, and most other media there's basically no good choice. All I really want is a way to search through everything there is based on genre, styles, themes, year of creation, those sort of things, so I can find something that I'll actually like out of all the dross. But there's nothing like that for most media. I try googling it but I rarely find anything worthwhile, and I end up giving up and returning to old bad habits.
While I am afraid I cannot help you in your concerns besides listening and it is probable you have seen these two sites: What about wikiart and google arts&culture? https://www.wikiart.org/enhttps://artsandculture.google.com/
Both sites function almost like a museum. I enjoy the possibility to download very good resolution images of paintings.
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Thanks a bunch for both listening and the suggestions anon, but I've already gone through most of what they have a bit ago. They're much better than nothing, but they have a lot of problems too. Wikiart is pretty biased towards well-known and old artists, and you don't tend to be able to find an artists whole corpus, only selected works that museums have shared. Even then the resolution is often sub-par. Google's scanning project is much better in that regard, but they still have quite a limited selection. Also when I say Art, I don't just mean fine art, I also like "low-brow" and commercial visual culture by modern artists and stuff. Like anime style drawings and random paintings by nobodies.
Ideally I'd like one site to find it all. Like some kind of automated AI powered booru that scrapes the images from a bunch of places like wikiart, museum and auction sites, artists portfolios, even places like pixiv and deviantart, then classifies them so you can browse through them with tags. But no one but me probably cares and I don't know a thing about coding nor could I afford the server and hosting costs of such a thing.
you could make a logo and layout and stuff, copy write it, and sell it to a website designer.
Make a name, a color scheme, a logo, ect..
its something to do and you could make bank
just remember if you do sell it so sell it for a set amount of money and a percentage of the earnings, ie. 5%
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Anon, this may come off as the last suggestion you may have thought of hearing but I know a site that caters to images of all kinda, low to high brow, entirely depending on the user's choice.
It is possible to make a quiet blog, only follow other blogs that post images or reblog them and not have much in terms of "social"-media. The website is flawed and has a (partly justified) bad rep but unlike all the other webspaces I've seen it allows for a very peaceful and homely experience.
It has a tagging system that allows you to add certain tags to posts to make it easier to find on a blog.
I hope you may find a place of rest to enjoy peace of mind.
I love Simberg too.
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That's actually an interesting suggestion that I hadn't thought of. I had tried using tumblr in the past, but I found it difficult to navigate and search through things, and even nice blogs often tended toward endless series of reblogs so you couldn't find out where it came from if you wanted more.
That said I think it's probably a good idea to try it out again. Thanks anon.
Yeah, Simberg is great, bright and comfy while also being somewhat melancholic and nostalgic at the same time.
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The hardest by far is the internet consumption. I have decided upon a different strategy with which I hope to eventually reach a point of little to not waste of time.
Instead of counting the hours, I forbid myself from going to the internet before noon. The week after, before 1PM. Then 2PM. Then 3PM. And so on,
There will be days when I have to check something earlier obviously but I think with this approach I might do better than up until now.
I am also sick of the internet and I want to go, but I don't consume anything already. I stick around because I want to share my artwork but I have negative infinite self-esteem and social phobias so I can't function outside of anonymous websites. If I make two posts in a row under the same nickname I feel like I'm suffocating. I wanted to make an account on ArtStation and just seeing mandatory name/surname fields made me feel nauseous.
It's completely irrational since I do or say nothing that would warrant this kind of fear, I am just terrified of putting myself out there in the world and I'm slowly growing old while opportunities, people and everything else pass by.
Fear really is the mind killer. I don't know how to recover. Even professional help couldn't fix this psychosis.
I have no idea why I'm posting this here right now, I normally lurk. I'm going through such a troubled phase.