>>1159>That's why there's special forces, but he's not intelligent enough for that
Lol. Thanks for the compliment, guy. Special forces guys aren't particularly intelligent. Sure, for soldiers they are smarter than the average, but they're really just the guys who were smart enough to pass a written test (even if it was 5th+ attempt) and then determined enough to pass the grueling training. Oh, and they were capable of learning another language, the largest part of the special forces training. Now they're stuck in a shitty job but I guess they made Sergeant lmao. Most special forces guys are happy with the choice, though, so good on them for drinking the Kool Aid ig. When it comes to the foreign legion, I'm sure every boy and girl dreams of being universally ostracized and viewed as a criminal all because they joined a military force that is associated with them. In fact, I'm sure they would love to do it so much that they will give up every last ounce of agency they have in their own lives to go and die as a glorified police force in the middle east or get dysentery and parasites navigating the marshy areas of the Amazon rainforest. You don't have to be intelligent to pass it through any of this shit. You just have to make the cut. That's more about determination than anything. And as for your off handed comment about my intellect, I'll say as a young teenager would "you don't know me". Because you don't. You know a simple emotional sliver of my life that I have decided to share here. Even very intelligent people fuck up pretty hard from time to time, doing so doesn't drop numbers their IQ score lmao. We're humans and we make mistakes.
Take your (you) and buy something to help you out of this dumb ass mind set of yours.
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Now for a little update on my life!
I'm doing decent for myself. I actually managed to get some really good job offers out of nowhere, but sadly my inability to drive meant I couldn't take them. Now I'm working for a medium sized delivery company that is partnered with a furniture company instead. It's a very low level position, but at $15 an hour and decent management I really can't complain. It's a pretty easy job and while I'm not too fond of some of my coworkers I'm getting along fine. I'm actually feeling pretty hopeful for the future right now, honestly.
As for some more personal stuff: what drove me to attempt suicide in BCT was some family stuff that's now been resolved and, for the big reveal, secretly being a trans girl. The latter definitely contributed more to what I was feeling back then and my continual trial and error with just ignoring it had some disastrous consequences. Now, before the Petersonians which inhabit this board come try to tell me how to live my life, I'm really just trying to figure stuff out right now. I'm trying to learn who I am, as dumb as that is, and I'm doing that as independently as I can. I don't need you to shill out my future to me, that's how I got into the military in the first place.
Don't worry, overall, though. I don't look back on the military with any fondness anymore. I just let the brain worms my First Sergeant gave me and the disappointment of my family for failing eat at me for a little while. I've learned some shit and built some character from the military. I'm moving on now. It's been a very formative month for me since making the OP and I look forward to many more like it.
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Why do gross people like you use this website only to try and ruin the vibe of it?
I'm back for my monthlyish check in. I'm just loving life right now. I mean, my job is ass but it pays well and I'm not super invested into it. I just do what I've gotta do and do it well then leave. With any luck I'll get to move into the supervisor position or at least get some decent raises here soon. Home life is as meh as ever. Slightly bad rn but I'm sure things will look up a little more here soon. I've started transitioning and have been on hormones for about 10 days now and I'm feeling the best I've ever felt in that regard. I'm saving up money to get my own car now. To be honest, that's about all there is to say.