No. 435 [Reply]
Hello, my friends.
For a while now I have had the assumption that I, personally, perceive the state of "feeling touched / moved" as more extreme than other people, though I have no idea why that might be.
The best example for this is whenever my dear mom passionately tells me about things she has done, for instance crafting some decoration, how proud she is of the outcome and that she'd like to show me. I perceive this as really cute and am extremely moved every time, but this "aww"-feeling seems more like sadness than anything else and one time even caused me to have some sort of emotional breakdown. One where I was crying for 2 hours straight, and I didn't even know what for - I still don't, in fact. This can't be entirely normal, can it?
My mom is the person I love most in this world, so then why do I feel so sad at times where her happiness shines through the most? Does it subconsciously remind me that I won't have her around forever? Maybe it reminds me of times when I wasn't good to her and I feel more grief now whenever I see how nice of a person and thus how undeserving she was of bad things that happened in the past?
Maybe some anons here have had similar experiences - if so, please tell us! Or maybe all of this really is normal after all and this is just what feeling moved is all about.
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this is pretty much how I feel when I'm finally coming out of a long period of depression. i get emotional over the smallest things, even to the verge of tears sometimes. but i usually readjust and things level out after about a week or so.
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Seems like you are just a sensitive person – those who can experience deep sadness can also experience the mirrored deep happiness (awe, meaning, etc.). Crying for 2 hours may seem like a long time, but perhaps there was some unexpressed pain you had to let out.
I have cried at paintings, sunlight glinting on a body of water, a sunset seen from a plane, seeing people gathered and relaxed all together in one place. This is the gamut of human experience.
Same here (but for shorter periods).
For me it also seems to happen if I notice oncoming depression but manage to avoid the spiral of negative thoughts, which I guess leaves me still biochemically fucked up for a while but not sad.
Every now and then, something strikes me for no conceivable reason. I feel a very physical sort of pain. Just the other night, I remembered how my mother used to say "ballie" instead of ball. That almost made me cry for the first time in I don't know how many years. I have no idea why, maybe I yearn for the innocence of days past. Another time is when I heard a quote from Jules Verne, about how two ship at sea, with no obstacles between them, will inevitably find each other. That seemed to strike me on some fundamental level. Once I just felt some primal urge that told me to run as fast as I can and never stop. It was so strong, and the knowledge that I couldn't do that made me feel like I was being torn in half. I don't know why the feeling comes in such strong waves, or what causes it. I don't know why it hurts, but it does. And, like I said, it's a literally physical kind of pain.