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I'm legitimately curious if any of my fellow chu/bm/en(?) have insightful advice/experience on this topic:3 posts omitted. Click reply to view.
Is there really a point when taking any steps towards any level of 'transitioning' becomes fundamentally a waste of time?
I'm past the third-way point in my life, and I feel like shit; I would never want surgery or anything like that, but when I look into the mirror I see something too far gone to even bother /trying/ to cd, or hell, even start a tailored exercise regimen instead of general fitness. I know people redefine their identity at all sorts of different points in their lives; but I feel that on some fundamental level I *know* it'll never "work," so why even bother? why face that disappointment? Is never knowing the even worse fate, though, I don't know.
For that matter, do any of you have any tricks for dealing with that profound sense of I guess ennui? Ways of normalising and coping with the eternal questioning of oneself; on how to better deal with self-perception, or fuck, even meditation techniques to better understand one's true state of mind, potentiality and desires?
So I'd like to know what, if any, experiences y'all've had wrestling, and any advice you may carry towards the real boots-on-the-ground realities of overcoming or compromising with, any of this. Honest personal insights.
this X 1000
i struggled to lose weight for years. i'd start strong, then fuck up sometime later in the day. then i'd be like, "Well I already fucked up may as well go order a pizza" then i'd gain even more wait. Just got to keep doing it until one day you don't fuck up, then you dont' fuck up for two days, three…..
:( sorry man. how is trying to lose weight going for you as of now?
also i would say any effort towards self improvement could never be a waste of time