I was in love with her for about three years, but that is not the reason we're not talking anymore.
She was the one to cut off all contact about a year ago, for no apparent reason. In fact, we were enjoying some particularly balanced, quality communication at the time, from my perspective. We live very far from each other, so our communication was mostly via internet. She used to frequently go MIA for a few months, so at first I wasn't too worried, but it's been a year now and she has ignored every single one of my attempts to contact her. At one point I was incredibly worried that a suicidal headmate of hers had taken over the body and killed everyone, so I contacted a friend of hers I knew. I was told she was doing very well, was attempting to finish high school (which she'd functionally dropped out of for a couple years), had found some new friends, and that she still talked of me warmly and frequently. Her friend promised to have her talk to me, but if she tried, she failed to convince her. So I wrote her a final email, explaining that she means a lot to me, that I'll always want to hear from her and that it's now in her hands to re-establish our connection. And that was that.
I still want to talk to her, honestly, but it's turning into an unhealthy obsession, so I'm trying to get her out of my head. I'd give anything to know what is going through her mind though.