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No. 1 [Reply]

Mental and Physical Health.

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No. 1017 [Reply]

Why am I so sensitive? All I do is cry. Someone replies to me in a tone that doesn't sound nice and my brain hates it. What's wrong with me? Why can't I toughen up? Why do words affect me so badly?


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I'm no expert but… exposure therapy? Spend a few hours in a Call of Duty lobby and that ought to make any other insult seem insignificant.


Sensitivity helps discern subtleties. I'd set up my world to avoid those bad experiences, and to preserve and enhance my sensitivity.


Lol. That is a good suggestion because I play Overwatch and have suffered through three games of League.

But I'm still sensitive and a giant crybaby. There's something wrong with me.


>I'm still sensitive and a giant crybaby. There's something wrong with me.
What does your doctor say about it? You don't have to tell us, but there's probably some wisdom there.
>[Exposure therapy] is a good suggestion because I play Overwatch and have suffered through three games of League.
Not really sure how to understand this. If it's a good suggestion, why has following it so much failed?

To be honest, I envy you a bit. I haven't had a good cry in *checks watch* at least a few years. Even when I've really wanted to. The closest thing is I want to cry, and my eyes get really dry, and I start laughing as though I'm sneering at something.


Do you even enjoy those games? I realized after years that I hated them. Quitting and leaving them behind was one of the best things I've done.

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No. 1009 [Reply]

Does anyone here suffer with OCD? How do you cope? I have the incessant need trigger myself and make myself feel dirty. It's ruining my life.
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Do you really need a doctor or a therapist if all they can do is to shill you bullshit medicine with side effects and talk about it every meeting as if it's the only most devastating thing in your life?


Whoever therapist you were seeing, they. are. crap. But don't smear their crap all over therapy.


I kinda regret making this post I'm sorry


I don't really cope, I end up repeating myself or my daily routine 4-5 times as if I mess up once I have to start all over again. It really bothers me and stresses me out at times.


I dunno if this can possibly help you, but I too have to have to perfectly complete my routine, but what I do when I mess up, is I do everything backwards—literally—until I'm back at a state where I know everything before it was in order. For example, If I put toothpaste on my toothbrush before rinsing it, I suck the toothpaste back into the tube and then rinse the toothbrush, then put the toothpaste back on the toothbrush. It's really gross, but over all it's better than doing the whole routine over. I've also made that specific mistake only extremely rarely after I started using the backtracking trick. It's like a personal `undo.'
Another thing is I modularized my routine into self-contained subroutines, so that if I mess up, and I need to start over, I can start over at the start of the subroutine that I messed up.

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No. 984 [Reply]

Paranoid thinking. Can't order food from Door Dash or Uber Eats. They'll poison it. Don't want to make dinner, it'll make more dishes. I don't want to do the dishes because I'm tired. I'm permanently tired because of depression. Get anxious because I think my life is spiraling. Desperately want to break the chain but being too uncomfortable to do so.

I'm scared.
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That's the spirit!


That's really good to hear. I'm still hoping to achieve any improvements. I haven't made any steps yet on attempting to find a psychologist or even return to where I went before. I feel as if due to the pandemic they'd want me to do video calls or something over the phone which I'm not willing to do at all. Such a troubling situation. I guess I can say, I haven't really become any worse. I've been avoiding specific negative triggers that throw me into panic states as well. I never had heard about that regarding the Columbine survivor though. Interesting and extremely wild odds.


get some exercise. you dont even have to go outside. do some pushups and squats. at least open a window though


I'd give you a source but I can't seem to find it, so I sure hope I wasn't accidentally giving false information. Anyway, my therapist does phone calls and not video calls. Is it possible you can ask them to do a phone call instead since you can't do video calls?

Exercise really helps tbh but my kneecaps absolutely despise squats. I end up doing yoga a lot of the time and then walking on the treadmill. Works just as good for me.


I'm too scared about the phone calls being recorded. I probably wouldn't really talk about anything specific or be truthful being on the phone.

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No. 592 [Reply]

I read once that if you go deep enough through your anus, you can reach the spleen.
Suposedly massaging the spleen internally grants an incredibly intense sensation, like a constant orgasm that doesn't run out.
Couldn't find any info on Google, i doubt there's any truth to it, but i'm still curious nonetheless, have you guys ever heard anything about it?
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You're being trolled. They're trying to get you to die embarrassingly.


I suspect someone just got the spleen and prostate confused


Follow your dreams :^)


This thread makes me exceedingly uncomfortable.


This is from Guts by Chuck Palahniuk by the way. Gross read, don't recommend it.

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No. 975 [Reply]

I always get to work on time. I always do my job. I get a workout. I'm good to my mother. Why am I still so unsatisfied with myself? Why am I never enough, why am I always inadequate?


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If you really do all these things, you aren't inadequate. As for not feeling satisfied with yourself… who knows?

I don't know a lot about life. I'm 15 and I'm not that smart. From what I can gather, people raise kids to fill something in their life. They get married. They buy land, and pick up hobbies. They build things with their hands, like a shed or something. I dunno.


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From what you described you seem to have the main 4 levels down, Working and loving for your fellow samaritans, but What bout you? Does working out act as a fulfilling third place between work & home? Is there any aspirations & passions you'd want to make space & time for


Everything above survival needs aren't needs. Further the distinction between safety and physiological needs is bunk. There are survival needs—the things without which you simply cannot be—and there is what you really want to do with your life. Without satisfying your survival needs, it'll be difficult to do what you really want to do. Some persons don't really have any special desires, so they'll be fine with just maximizing the satisfaction of their survival needs. I really only care about one thing, so that's what I built my life around. In terms of satisfying my needs, I figured a way to do that that's integrated with that lifestyle, so I never feel like I have to `work' to survive: I live in my own happy little world.
The problem seems to be that what you're doing with your life is not what you really want to be doing with your life, or it is but there's something missing. You should know more about your life than I do, so I won't tell you what changes will work for you, but there are some general suggestions about how to figure it out. As banal as it sounds, trying different things tends to be a good place to start.
It could also be a mental health condition. If lifestyle changes don't improve your malaise, professional help may be beneficial.


I think I'd like to raise crickets.

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No. 960 [Reply]

Post what you did today to work towards your goals. Or if you did nothing, reflect on why and how you'll do better (don't be too hard on yourself though, perhaps you can even still do something today, even if small?). Hopefully you will feel more motivated and accountable.

>why not just use deeds?

I don't want to spam deeds for boring or very minor things, I'm ok with posting it in a thread though.
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The city is probably only considered a small town to most of you as it's only around a population of 17k. My hometown is less than half of that. Anyways to finish up posting about my day, we got a quick bite to eat which I just ended up getting a grilled chicken sandwich from the food joint we stopped by which we then found some tables to eat at down the street. I seemed okay until a very strange person started hanging out in these bushes near where we were eating. I personally think he decided to go in there to get high on whatever drugs he may had possessed. Heroin and meth are pretty bad here, seems to be that way almost everywhere these days. But anyways, next thing I know my girlfriend gets really disgusted and has us leave. She told me soon as we got back on the road and was heading home she believed the guy was masturbating. I believe he probably was just pissing and really strung out. (Post 5)


That ending situation possibly could have ended up worse and brought slight paranoia to me. Overall, the day was about attempting my goal of trying to get out of the house to focus on self-improvements one day at a time. The only other comments I have to make about the day is I don't see how people honestly work 8 hours a day while wearing a mask, I'm glad we didn't stay in locations very long as I was already suffocating after 15-25 minutes of wearing my mask. I'm not sure what I plan on doing next, I guess I'll try to visit or reach out to other family while also possibly working on some physical routine. Maybe even try cleaning up a little bit around the house. I'm not sure what to do about work yet as I'm still not yet ready to take that leap. But it's hard to not feel stressed out with everything going on when you don't have a source of income and my girlfriend has already been as patient with me as she has. Sorry for the long blogpost, hope everyone else is well, and doing what they can to make it through their personal ordeals. (Post 6)


Sorry that I had to split >>989 >>990 >>991 >>992 >>993 >>994 into six parts, didn't realize that the post limit size was what it was on here. It's been a while since I've been on here and thought I'd return once and a while. Another goal that I've been trying to achive is to communicate with others after a long period of isolation from any type of networking whatsoever. I'm trying to get the hang of honestly, just living again.


I continued with getting out of the house again today. This time I didn't really go anywhere in public, just got picked up and visited with my grandma for a couple of hours. Played with the dog a little bit even though I eventually started to get annoyed with it. Then ate dinner with her, helped back up some files for her onto laptop, and came home. The visit went okay, she ended up getting me a new pair of shoes which I needed while she was out earlier in the day. Once I got home, I felt somewhat motivated to do a small bit of house work. I changed the filter in the house, did some laundry, and took out the trash. My goal of self-improvement is still running it's course for two days in a row. I'm hoping I don't lose focus and start to slump back into my depression as well as become unmotivated to do anything again. Coming on here and posting about it as well as the "deeds" section is nice. I've thought on possibly making a blog or working on a small webpage. I just really don't want to throw an actual "personality" with it but maybe go by a pseudonym. I don't want a lot of attention towards me or my actual identity. Maybe just some way to keep somewhat an online diary of sorts of my day to day life with various topics. Of course at this time, it's just a mere thought.


I focused more on my mental health today by having a couple of self induced pep talks. Followed with some minimal straightening up around the house, such as throwing some stuff away and making the bed. Then I ate some dinner and tried some meditation. I wanted to keep myself calm as I started to feel some anxiety throughout the early parts of the day. It seemed to help for the most part. I'm going to try to find something different to take care of throughout the night hours. I might just relax and watch a movie, I'm not entirely sure yet.

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No. 583 [Reply]

Does anyone like tarot?
I don't use them to try to foresee my future, but I like to appeal to the symbolism as a way to gain a different perspective on the present. I find the symbolism to be very deep and almost archetypal. Like old folk tales, different artists have made their own interpretations and representations of the cards over many years. Their true value and power has persisted through these various variations.
Two people just quit at my job right before the start of holiday season, and one of my tires went flat. But, drawing this card reminds me to stand tall and stay resilient, despite any past blows.
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BTW this isnt op


I know.
And I know.

I just want to get into because it seems fun.


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I do Tarot. Been doing so I was 15 and got a Rider Waite deck from my mom for birthday.

I also own a Crowley Thoth.

I can try to help answer questions if needed.


I use tarot in two ways, and one of them is has taken me into undesirable states a few times, so I tend to stick to the psychological model.

Tarot's like a Rorschach test. Tarot's meaning and imagery is sort of based on Jungian archetypes; common elements that exist in all human psyche.

When you ask a question or just pull cards, your subconscious projects what it wants you to see. It's like a dream. You don't control dreams, some other part of your mind you aren't aware of at the present is pulling the strings, putting on a play for you. Tarot allows you to do the same thing, but on top of a framework.

For instance, when you pull the Ace of Wands, which signifies new artistic or passion-driven work, don't interpret it as "you'll get inspired". Just see the card, and allow your mind to project what it wants, which is often the deepest thing you want, but might have been avoiding for reasons x y.

I prefer Past Present Future draws.

Past indicates the pattern/idea/thing that set up the situation
Present is the current situation
Future is what could possibly end up happening if you stay on this course.


Why does Rider-Waite add all that extra symbolism on the minor cards that earlier decks like Marseilles don't have?

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No. 270 [Reply]

How many of you guys are hikkis? It is not something I am proud of personally, yet, it's only been about a month into my second relapse. Have any of you been through this, and have you any advice?
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>I'm sorry to hear that man, your story sounds a lot like mine. How are you holding up?
Same as years ago. I'm waiting till my anchors are gone so I can go too.
>Do you have any support, family or otherwise?
Not really and things are getting exponentially worse post-corona. Health and economic issues.
>Have you tried medical help? Is that accessible where you live? Antidepressants are far from great, but in a desperate situation, they can help restart things.
I am not going to see a doctor ever again. I am tired of being told I am the problem and that somehow I have deluded myself that life is unbearably painful when it's not. This life is clearly something I don't want. There is nothing I can do in this life that would give me purpose or happiness. All my dreams have been shattered one by one. I thought the internet would have given me an opportunity but it's straight up impossible to do what I would have liked to do. I do not want to become yet another zombie working some shitty retail job while chugging antidepressants. I would rather die while I am free.
I had asked for so little, I even prayed, I earnestly kneeled and prayed to a God I didn't believe in, to have something back for all the shit I've been through. Nothing, it was too much to ask.
This might be my last post, I'm done with imageboards.


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>>551 here.
One year later. I'm my third semester now, I decided to go for a degree in Chemistry, first semester was ok, I had some of the best grade among my peers, and meet some friends, and actually got attention from a lot of girls which was a surprise to be honest, (I end up loosing my V-card, but I'm not very proud of the whole thing) second semester was meh I'm back to being friendless and with the Corona outbreak I'm back to my home not quite as a Hikki but at least I'm comfy, now I'm starting the third hopefully every will be fine this semester, a part of me wants to stay at home for the rest of the uni, to be honest there's nothing that attach me to the Uni and specially the city I have to move in order to go to college, even if Virtual classes are a pain I still prefer to be in the commodity of my home.

I wish I had something more important to tell you guys, but haven't done anything more interesting beside studying, I got some ""friends"", and I got a short ""relation"" but now everything is back to normal, and that's much better, I have to confess that I still feel 0 passion or anything like that for my career path, but I noticed I'm better student that the average person, so I think I can manage my way through the rest of the semester.

In the mean time I have to tell you guys that I finally accomplished one of my long dreams that was to build a decent computer (I know, not much of a dream but I really wanted it), I saved for years and this year finally managed to built it.

I've been feeling a lack of motivation the last semester and I don't think it will go away anytime soon, but I'll be fine.



Anon, your support almost make me tear up, but I don't think I deserve so much support from you, in the end I'm still a capable human been, my life hasn't been particularly hard, but I got into the Hikkikomori life-style for the same reasons most of the people get into that life-style, and my 'recovery' has been going if not well, at least decent.

In the end I'm just probably just another socially inept lazy scum (that's how I've been called), but hey, thanks for your support Anon, it really meant a lot to me, even if we are just strangers.

I hope your life is doing ok too, I'll cheer up for you too.
See you next year.

Thanks for listening, this be my last update for this year.


Not a hikki quite yet, but I am definitely a NEET, complete with SSI. I don't believe I'll ever fully be able to work because my public school teachers were so emotionally abusive that they purposely docked my grades. I can't even drive. I don't pay attention well enough.

I genuinely want to become better and live a life outside of being a NEET. It's my dream to open a little store where I sell handmade goods. No idea if I'll ever achieve it, but it's a nice thought to cling to when life gets rough.


I've rarely been a full hikki, since I would still be forced by my family to go to school or occasionally shopping, but I would become one on breaks and holidays. The closest I got to being a full one I suppose is 2 years ago when I lived away from home for the first time and spiraled into the worst depressive episode I've ever had. I stopped going to any of my classes through the middle of the semester and ate every single meal in bed. Essentially I only got up to shower and use the bathroom.

I think some bad life events that meant I would ultimately have to drop out of school if I continued being a hikki, such as my father refusing to support me financially at all anymore and my grandmother getting cancer (My mother decided to sell our house and leave the country to go care for her), made me start being more active in trying to get myself out of that lifestyle. I started self-studying Japanese, after having taken it for 4 years in high school, and it became a huge passion that I absorbed myself in learning all-day long. This was very important because up until then I don't think I had ever had a single thing in my life that I had been remotely passionate or disciplined enough to keep working at. I believe getting the discipline from that slowly started seeping improvements into other areas of my life, which is why the advice I always like to give now is to find a passion. It may sound like a tired cliche, but I do think it is extremely important to find some area or subject that you will do anything to get good at, so to speak. It can serve as a small light in your darkest tunnel.

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No. 263 [Reply]

Why do I have no discipline?
Why can't I do anything?
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based reverse psychology


Hehe… It wouldn't be so sad if this wasn't true.
It didn't work :/.
I'm literally turning into a vegetable because of this corona thing going on.


Because you don't enjoy the thing you're trying to do. You just enjoy the results.


>Because you don't enjoy the thing you're trying to do. You just enjoy the results.
There are a lot of things you have to do you don't really like and don't really care about result.


>wanted to rewrite completely an imageboard and get rid of self-made abomination/database
>ended up just changing couple things, because I just didn't want to think.
How do I stop being such a lazy asshole? I mean, there was a motivation (because this self-made flat file thing had backfired countless times, because it is just another 9000th clone of 4chan/vichan/whatever type of a deal), but still it wasn't enough apparenlty

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